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Sunday, July 22, 2007
thougth i didnt needed this blog cos i gt the org to write my thougths down.. guess i m wrong..its kinda small... there has been sum issues on my mind lately.. and guess this blog is here for me to blog blog out my feelings and emotions... its kinda hard to bottle everything up..
ks jus asked me to be his stead over msn.. was kinda shocked...bt yet i kinda saw dat coming.. guess i kinda knew he was intereted in me.. jus that i dont have that kind of inclinations towards him.. am sorry...i jus cant..
yaps not getting anymore younger.. i do wana get married.. wana have my own kids.. each time i m on the street and i see the kids.. it jus makes me feel motherly.. yaps..i want my own family badly..
i dislike myself for being soft hearted.. realise am the kind that wld be willing to do alot for others.. esp if they are jus my frens and bcos of that i m put at a disadvantged.. at times it gives others the wrong signals.. bt i din mean to.. who can understand all this ?
i get very close to people easily... i duno noe why or hw i m capable of dat.. i dun undersatnd.. i dun wish to mislead anyone.. yet i duno hw i shld do things... i dun wish to be a bitch and hurt them.. nor do i wish to see the frenship gg down the drain..
and bcos of this..i wish i have a boyfriend.. things would be clearer too.. i duno whr to draw a line.. neither do i noe hw to draw it... Lord , please who me the way.. teach me and guide me...